(via sharrzz)

im not sure if your gonna see this but i hoping you will.

Im sorry about how angry and jelous i get. i never want to be like this but i am. its not that i dont trust you i know that yoou would never hurt me, or go behind my back, im just jelous that my fuck up of friends are going to be spending alot of time with you… and i wont be able to.

i just love you so much, and yes i know its not like me leaving is the end of anything. not by the least, but i want these two moths to be great i want to spend as much time with you as possible, and i want to make some great memories togeather… i know it sounds pathetic… but i meanit. you really are the greatest thing in my life

 thank you so much for everything sydney

lol

damn right

(via hellyesilovemytruck)

holy fuck… thats my dads work i used to was my car there

i love IND

fucking favorite car… only in pink 

(via carpr0n)

(via porkchopinc)

(via porkchopinc)

But for the last few days i have been thinking this and keep forgetting to say something.

Everytime something bad happens that kinda kills my wallet for stupid reasons (windows) my first thing that goes through my mind is not how im gonna pay for it (i have the money) but what i would rather spend the money on. i would rather use that money to take her out, because i love doing that we always have a great time, i would rather spend that on prom stuff to try and give her the best prom i can, and not to mention attempting to give her a great birthday. i love to treat her it makes me happy and its truly what i want!

And second thing ive been thinking about. im not very religious by any-means what so ever, but if i remember to i do pray before i go to bed (tho not very formal) alot of the time all i pray for is that she will feel better. it kills me to see her sad, because she doesn’t deserve it. and i would do anything in the world to make it better. so i always end up praying for the next day to be better for her and i even say that you can take what things you want from me because i would rather see her smile and laugh more than anything else in the world.

I love you and you have no clue just how much you mean to me.

i hate this i dont want to graduate. I dont want to do this navy thing i hate it all it does is stress me out, im gonna lose all of it one way or another when i come back after wasting 4 years of my life all im gonna have to come back to is a family that makes me sick to think about. ill have nothing. i cant back out of the navy cause guess what? what am i left with then? the only thing i could ever stand doing is going into the automotive industry and thats dieing. i dont want to do this. i seriously do think  that once i have the opportunity im going to volunteer for anything so i can try and not make it home. and i mean it and i think about it alot. aint that just sad?